Taking Care of Yourself

My Chiropractor told me that I needed to remember that not too long ago I gave my baby back to God and that I needed to give myself time to heal.

Most people have already forgotten the traumatic experience my husband and I have been through. It's not one of those get over it things, it's a day to day journey. I finally gave into the fact that if I need a nap during the day, I need to allow myself to do that without the guilt.

I have come to a realization that if I was nursing a baby right now, I would be stuck in a chair for the next 9 months. Why on earth do I think it's ok to push my limits because I don't have that baby? It's not ok, I have to take care of myself for the rest of my children. So I get home from work and I may not be able to get up all the energy I need to clean the house top to bottom, I may only get the dishes done, if I do that I've gotten somewhere.

I decided I needed a massage. After massaging people everyday so much gets built up in my shoulders, back hips, everywhere, so I realized I needed a massage. I went to the local massage school and was surprised when the girl got to my shoulders, I started to have leakage in my eyes. The amount of emotion coming out of my shoulders was incredible and shocking.

You go along thinking you're ok, thinking that by taking the vitamins is helping. Helping other people get well is helping you, taking care of the day to day things is moving ahead. Then bam! out of nowhere you have to face the fact that it's ok to cry, it's ok to take care of yourself and all of these other things are noble and good and they do in fact help, but reaching up to God and saying, I need more is ok too.  Then God lets you know in his own way, that taking care of yourself is just as important as taking care of the rest of the world.