Write your story

I am one that writes my own story, I decide the person I'll be, what goes in the plot and what does not are pretty much up to me.

These are the words to one of my favorite songs from my childhood. I loved it so much I remember writing it down on a piece of paper. There have been so many years in my life where I didn't feel like I was allowed to write my own story, but I think the words were so ingrained in my subconscious that my spirit kept searching and looking for the answer to how to write my own story.

There came a day in recent years when I began to awaken. To remember that I was on this earth for more than doing laundry or running errands, or being everything for everyone else. I had a mission. I wasn't getting anywhere by not being true to the person God created. I realized that I had spent so much of my life catering to the whims of others, hoping other people liked me, trying to please everyone. and the sad thing is that in the midst of that I believed I was being Christ-like and fulfilling my mission. But something kept nagging at me.

I had blessings in my life and I wanted all that my creator had in store for me. but this one thing kept coming to haunt me. I remember being told that I was a light, a teacher, an example. And no matter what calling I had I could not get anyone to listen to me.

I didn't know I was writing a story of frustration and undervalue. I didn't know that my body language was telling people how to treat me. I didn't know that the negative voices in my head that told me no one wanted me, no one really loved me, no one cared, no one valued me. I didn't know that those words didn't belong to me, and they were so helpful in writing more of that same story. I was Stuck!

Then I learned some tools to help me and bring awareness to what I was doing, because really! you can't change anyone but yourself, and even though I had heard those words so many times, I didn't know how to change myself. I was everyone's good little helper and I got stomped on and used as a rug.

I want to share with you one tool you can use, this tool has been a lifesaver for me and has helped me connect more with God, myself, and even my angels. This tool is called journaling.

When you write your story, go big! go strong! say everything you need to say and then, (never allowing another human being to read it) destroy it. tear it up, burn it, stomp on it, whatever you need to do to allow all that "stuff" to quit being stuffed inside of you allowing you to move forward in your life.

I saw a picture of me recently and was comparing 3 different pictures. the first was taken about 5 years ago while I was in Massage school I looked like a brick. I felt like a brick, my fellow students shuttered to work on me because my tissue was brick like! I had "stuffed" so many years of hurt and pain and life experiences, because remember I wasn't allowed to have feelings, I had to be the strong one, I was everyone's little helper. It made me physically sick and brick like.

When I began to allow the past to release from my muscles, tendons, and fascia I began to physically change. The second picture I looked at was from 2 years ago before I was able to shed some weight. I look a lot better! lumpy but not brick like. This was only a year after losing a baby at 18 weeks pregnant, and I had some stuff to let go of that kept coming up and I noticed in the picture that I had somewhat of a shape to me although it was lumpy. the third picture is recent. I have shed 25 lbs with Plexus was able to get my gut in order and my blood sugar leveled, in addition to the health aspects, I was able to continue using tools to allow more "stuff" to come up and be released. I can say that I now have a waist line, and I feel great. Of course I still have more work to do, but I not only have taken control of my health, but also I am writing my story in a whole new way!